Dad said that he read it it and says I'm gay because he didn't get along with me when I was a child, and becuase I was all the time with my mom. Ok if this was completely true then tons of my friends would be gay, too. Mom says he's the causer I'm gay because of that. I've tried to explain them that that's bullsh*t, but they don't believe me. I've even tried to explain them that Richard A Cohen is a fraud , and that he's not licensed, but even that they believe more the words of this son of a b*tch that their own son.
Both are thinking that I'm confused because I never had a girlfriend. Anyway the problem with me is that I also don't have boy friend, so I don't have enough proof to show them that I'm real gay. I've tried to tell them that I enjoy watching gay porn, ,and that it completely turns me on, but straight and lesbian porn don't . AND still don't believe me. They say that watching gay porn doesn't mean I'm gay.
I'm not going to deny it, I do like men, even though they don't accept it. Now they threaten me saying that if I don't start reading the book they'll take away my Playstation 3 which I don't want to, and they also say that they will no longer pay internet service, also don't want to.
Yesterday my mom kneeled down and begged, during this she was crying, she wanted me to promise her that I must stop doing this, she wanted me to promise her that I won't date any guy during next year or 2013, she wants to take therapy or something. I didn't promise her anything because I know that sooner or later I will fall in love with a guy, so why I should i promise her somethign I'm not going to do.
What really worries me is that my mom mentioned something about these ex-gay camps, can't remember very well , but I don't want to go to one of those. If they force to go one, I will call the police or something. REALLY I AM GETTING TIRED OF THEM.
I'm still dependant, I'm receiving FAFSA to pay my college clases, and I don't have a job. I've been trying to get one for 2 years and still no luck. This makes my situation even harder because it'll take a lot time to me to be independant.
I don't know what to do. I'm thinking of going back my closet, and make them believe that I'm changing that i'm really becoming straight , so when I'm completely dependant I will come out again.
We (mom, dad and I) will take theraphy starting next year, I hope the theraphist we'll see make them understand that homosexuality can't be cured, and I also hope this theraphist doesn't believe that it can be cured , otherwise i'm completly f*cked up.
Please help me what can i do in this horrid situation?
I've been thinking of trying PFLAG, but the problem would be my mom because she does't speak English, she speaks Spanish only.
This one is rather complicated…and it should probably be ironed out with the therapist instead of unqualified people over the internet.
I can understand why your father would be upset with this. Especially if you're his only son. Basically, you are marking the end of his family lineage. But, if he truly loves you as a father he will eventually have to accept you as you are.
My best advice would be to just be who you are. In time you'll graduate, find a job and move on with your own life. After all, it IS your life and not your parent's life to live. But, if you are constantly worried about what your parents think and are trying to live as they dictate you will never be happy, and thus, will develop other problems in the future. Remember, you need to be comfortable in your own skin.
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You are going to have to talk straight (pardon the pun) to your parents. Tell them your being gay is not about them. It's about who you are. Let them know that they have done a pretty good job raising you and you are still the same person. Be careful of the therapist they choose. Some of them actually recommend "curing" homosexuality. That doesn't work because homosexuality is not a disease. Your parents gave you a book? Give them one or two on the subject. There are plenty of them out there. This may take some time, stand up for yourself, use logic and honesty. You and your parents will make it through this.
Strangely Spain is one of the few countries that has legalized gay marriages??
Your parents need to read some more recent books on homosexuality, so you need to source some from the library or PFLAG.Maybe they could read this and you could pretend to read Mr Cohen' s drivel. You are 20 years old and need to stand up for yourself. You do not need 'Proof that you are a Poof'. If the threat of removing the PS3 because you are gay, I would pack it up and hand it to them and say I'm still gay. And you are right you need a job , Independence and some maturity.
Too long; didn't read. XD
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